To try and make this world real is simply exhausting!


This is such a great writing by my friend of old Vanessa Johansson. I thought to pass it along for those who feel this way and are really ready to stop the insanity and open to a better way. I responded to her by sharing: Lesson 128 which is copied at the bottom of her expression.

A Message from my friend Vanessa:
Sometimes its just simply too much. And I’m no light weight. After all of my effort and focus and intending and owning it and feeling and breathing and being present and reading and music and juicing and conscious consumption and blogging and hard work and dedication and responsibility and honesty and being brave and altered states and prayers and meditation and essential oils and being outside and gardening and workshops and letting go and holding on and yoga and trying new things and simplifying and having opinions and fermented foods and colonics and paying it forward and talking to aliens and journaling and remembering my dreams and turning the other cheek and digging deeper and laugh therapy and more therapy and no therapy and homeschooling and sprouting and mantras and hanging upside down and hot springs and volunteering and sponsoring and hosting and being authentic and adopting shelter animals and raising conscious kids and getting an education and being artistic and running a company and using my voice and staying informed and being there for my friends and calling back and checking in and checking out and sexual healing and recycling and self care and washing my sheets and composting and buying local and caring and multitasking like the mother of God Herself…..holy shit.
A girl gets tired.
This world is weird and the violence is incomprehensible and the ignorance breaks my heart and hurts my feelings and there are so many damn people everywhere and I just want to go off planet for a while and catch my breath.
Having a body is for real.
Throw in a little ambition and a whole lotta giving a shit and who has time for becoming like a child again?
I think Jesus had it right. Love it all cuz you cant tease it apart. No one will ever agree on what is right or wrong or good or bad….and trying to impose my definitions on others only creates war.
Massively bless everything says Steve Adler.
Im doing my best to give my best and maybe my best is only meant to show me that there is nothing to be done other than to enjoy the ride…wipeouts and all.
So Im giving myself….and everyone else…two thumbs up and five gold stars…..just for showing up.
Good job everyone.

The world I see holds nothing that I want.
W-128.1. The world you see holds nothing that you need to offer you; nothing that you can use in any way, nor anything at all that serves to give you joy. 2 Believe this thought, and you are saved from years of misery, from countless disappointments, and from hopes that turn to bitter ashes of despair. 3 No one but must accept this thought as true, if he would leave the world behind and soar beyond its petty scope and little ways. W-128.2. Each thing you value here is but a chain that binds you to the world, and it will serve no other end but this. 2 For everything must serve the purpose you have given it, until you see a different purpose there. 3 The only purpose worthy of your mind this world contains is that you pass it by, without delaying to perceive some hope where there is none. 4 Be you deceived no more. 5The world you see holds nothing that you want.W-128.3. Escape today the chains you place upon your mind when you perceive salvation here. 2For what you value you make part of you as you perceive yourself. 3 All things you seek to make your value greater in your sight limit you further, hide your worth from you, and add another baracross the door that leads to true awareness of your Self.